It's dark. I'm speeding down streets with blank signs. I try and keep my focus on the road ahead of me. Anything but the undescriptive pieces of land falling behind. They mean nothing because they are nothing. There is nothing familiar or even recognizable there. Just a blurring assortment of blacks, browns, dark greens, and blues.

I stare at the dark road before me instead. There are no yellow lines, only the tiny cracks and crevices of the pavement coming together and breaking apart, forming a million little black rivers running up and down a never ending wasteland of blue. Blue, like you.

But where are you? I turn to where you should be beside me and you're not there.
And the tiny black cracks start to grow larger and the branches from the trees start to come closer and your voice is in my ear. I can almost feel your breath. "I can't chase the nightmares away, Courtney." I cling to this because it's all I have. Because I don't have the power to push down on the brakes. Because I don't have the power to turn the wheel. Because I don't have the courage to jump out of the car. Because I'm not the one in charge here, you are. And because I still feel your breath on my skin.

I let my hands fall and close my eyes and I can't see the dead ugly colors of the world around me. I can't see the branches that have begun to scrape the sides of the car. I can't see the dangerously large black cracks in the pavement threatening to swallow me whole.
I can only see blue. Blue, like you.



<3 Court

Jenny - Stabbed victim.
Ciera - Cigarettes.
Paris - Fallen down a flight of stairs/broken neck.
Cameron - Death by bleach and or drain-o.
Ben R. - Impaled.

I'll add more as they become available. :]





<3 Court